Sorry for the last post, but sometimes things just seem completely unfair (I know - insert lecture about how life is not fair). I needed a moment to wallow before sucking it up and moving forward. I will find more from the doctor on the Monday after Thanksgiving, so decisions will be made then in regards to having a child. :)
I did have two people offer to carry my child for me, ha that is funny. Other than that, I need to see in my heart if I am OK with NOT having a child and what that all means to me. I am not jumping to any decisions; not until I talk with my doctor, my husband, God and myself. I am sad about this, everyone hopes that getting pregnant will be as easy as it is for many friends - I swear half of them sneeze and they are pregnant. Unfortunately, like many other things in my life, that is not my luck. I happened to get a little more than some others and there are people that have gotten more than me, so dang it, I guess that is just the way it is.
On another note, I had 4 days off in a row at work - the most glorious November Fall days I can remember and it was good. Good for me to rest my body, good for me to rest my soul and good for my household chores :) .