At the same time there is this fear that I did not have before, the fear that I will get another massive MS attack and that I will hurt myself by training too hard. I remember the day that my headaches started, I had done a small (3 mi) trail run in which I felt way to overheated and slow for my fitness level. Was that a sign I was not picking up on, was my body telling me something, did THAT particular trail run cause my MS attack?
Errr! These are the times that I wish that I could go on pretending that nothing was wrong and wishing that I had never gotten that MS diagnosis. I do not want it to interfere with the things that I love, MS is so unfair at times.
I guess I will type out my marathon training plan, start it, and hope for the best. I have until August to decide if I can do it and see if my body is cooperating, that is my deadline for signing up. Fingers crossed and positive outlook (big girl pants as well), that is all I can really do.
Em & I finishing the AK marathon 9/26/2009 almost 2 months to the day before my diagnosis.