Lately I feel as though my energy is like money (energy units if you will). MS has left me busted, spent, and poor on these energy units as I am constantly spending my energy on work, relationships, mental health, and simply being alive and I find that at the end of the day I end up short. I was frustrated the other day because we had friends over for dinner (after a full day of work), which I REALLY enjoy, but it just took so much out of me. By the time they came over and all of the cooking and straightening was done, I found myself short of energy to really enjoy the time we spent together.
I find that annoying and hard to explain, how do you tell people that you are just tired? I feel like a crappy person to hang around because, well I am crappy. Who wants to hang out with the girl that falls asleep on the couch while hanging out or yawns through their really good story. Goodness, just another obstacle to maneuver around. Wish I could just tell my body to work like I want it to.